I had such a wonderful conversation with Gayle. We could have talked for hours on different times my career has shifted and even surprised me. I’ve experienced setbacks, confusion, and energizing leaps forward. I’ve even gotten in my own way on more than one occasion and learned to listen more deeply to my inner wisdom to lead the way out of some terrifying financial situations.
I believe capturing our family legacy stories is important. Without understanding the stories of the people from our families, we might never really know ourselves – why we have the likes and dislikes we do, why we have certain traditions and more. Once we have an understanding, we can pass our lessons onto our children and grandchildren as well.
At this moment, whatever gift you have to give — your smile, your energy, your kindness, your shoulder, your donations, your ability to communicate, your problem-solving — your voting, your helping others to vote safely, your taking time to educate yourself about civics, and then help others to learn about it, your compassion, your help in preventing the spread of a pandemic — you are being called upon to use any of these or all of these gifts right now, when we need it the most to bring light into to the darkness.
My sense is that a part of me still struggles with overcoming the feeling of “not being good enough,” to step into a greater role. Yet, just as I’ve silenced the voice of the guidance counselor who told me I’d never write, I will silence the voice of my mother, mainly, who admonished me “not to get above my raisin.’” And so too, will I turn my ear from the ghostly voices of partners who demanded that their dreams and visions be placed ahead of my own. I know it must be done if I’m to shake this feeling of being uncomfortable in my own skin. When I ask, what is it that I’m to do, and I receive an answer, I must do it – whether it’s rest, or write, or read, or move my body.
Apparently, surrender, like writing, is a practice––not something to be done in fits and starts, but to choose daily.